General rant...

Ok, I know I've not been very regular at updating my blog. Many reasons. Perhaps I should come clean about a few things.

I'm a depressive. I have major periods of depression, suicidal sometimes. Then wow I feel good for long periods. I'm afraid I may be bi-polar. I'm afraid to go to my dr to find out too... LOL.

I've lost almost half my body weight. I'm now 150lbs (10st 10lbs) and I started off at 20 stone. But I'm afraid that it may be all down to having an eating disorder. - OK this is actually a major confession. I'm coming out of the closet. And anyone who knows me may be shocked... I vacilate between being COE (Compulsive Over-Eating) and EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified). I have long periods of almost Anorexic tendancies. Sometimes, slightly bullimic - I have binged/purged - I know - not good any of these things.

I'm at a cross roads in my life. I actually feel more empowered than I ever have in my entire life. I feel very much in control of my weight, my psyche. However, I feel that I'm not on the right track. I'm very unhappy in my marriage (major confession time here)...shall I publish this or not - I think I should be true to my self and publish...

I'm very interested in Wicca. Either Seax-Wica or Dianic-Wicca - I'm still learning, studying and researching. Anyone that wants to contact me with any comments about these, do feel free. I'm leaning towards solitary eclectic Wicca - but that is only because I don't know anyone else who is Wiccan. I'm not sure what tradition suits me yet.

Ok - enough ranting - I will post this now and hope for the best in the coming days!